Holidays!!

Now that I am writing this post, my holiday vacation has started! Pishi and I made the deals with all the services we want for our reception; and next week we will finalize them!

My In-Laws will be here next week as well. Pishi and I are very excited to have them in our home. Specially that we are going to decorate it now!

We finished buying the Christmas gifts for our family as well, and now, I feel much better that, everything is smoothing out. I was busy helping Mohandes Yalda party tonight and now I can rest! Tonight is also ISU Yalda party as well. But I didn't go, to neither of the parties. I never thought that there would come a time that I would not enjoy parties, just because my special someone is not there. We were planning this weekend to rest, however because our guests are arriving on Dec. 25th, we have many on going tasks to finish; From getting a new windshield for the car to me going to the saloon, buying china patterns, flower and candle settings and kitchen stuff!! Happy holidays everyone and enjoy!!

Accomplishments so far!

Last week was totally exhausting but very productive. We managed to finalize all the deals for all services. Only a few things like chair cover colors/ color of the linen and napkins and my bouquet, getting back my head piece and the tasks around Jan. 2 is left. The major thing left is to send out the invitations and fixing our website.

Doing all that since we got our furniture in Friday, we managed to finally have our first small gathering in our apartment! We invited my family for dinner. It was fun to play host. However we literary passed out as soon as they left! Imagine preparing the food/vacuuming/cleaning the bathroom/preparing the desert and appetizer just in 3 hours! I personally think we rock!;) Yesterday we looked for coffee tables and lamps. We got one cool one for the computer room from IKEA! This week is going to be super busy and therefore I can't wait for the weekend of relaxation!

This weekend has been exteremly productive compare to pervious ones!!We got to do the housework and cooking as usual but we ended up making decisions for the party too. So far everything is thought for except for the vidoegraphy and photography! Which I am glad to be done by the end of this week and we can celebrate the weekend with a day atleast of relaxation!!

We got our attire back from the dry cleaning and tried them, thankfully we have not gain as much as weight we thought!!!

This week is going to be busy too. But lots of parties to go to in Dec. from work luncheons to housewarming party to engagment party!!and many more that we won't be able to go because of double bookings!

Work is going smoothly, my supervisor, doesn't want me to get bored, so she told me that we I don't want to do Moisture and Assay, I can always tell her, I am sure if I ask her to get a formal training on AHA, she would be more that delightful!!

My career plans/studying will be more seriously focoused as soon as I finish with my wedding party! We are planning to exercise more as well. Specially swimming since we are have the facility in our apartment. So let's hope that this week goes smoothly and our brand new furniture come in on time and we still like it!!

Recently I have been very busy trying to organize this weeding party! Some updates on how it is going:

1. Hall, catering and chair covers are booked.
2. Invitation cards and napkins are printing as I am writing this post! Pishi is taking care of R.S.V.P.
3. I have an appointment with the Dj next.
4. We have been looking around for centre pieces everywhere and we will make a decision this weekend.
5. We have to make the deal for cake next week as well.
The tasks that we haven't touch and need to be done by the end of next week are as follow:
6. photography and vidoegraphy
7.The florist

I met with my girlfriends last night at Canyon Creek. It was such a long time since we met with each other. Passing time has done some changes to our lives. One is on the verge of getting a divorse, one is pragnent, and other 3 and I are just slowly going through changes!It was fun catching up with them.

As for me work is going going well. However there is this guy that freaks me out at work! I probably will be reporting him to HR for a training on code of conduct. Other than that I am excitment for our wedding reception and that my in laws will be here for that.

The Big Day



We are setting the big day to be in January of 2007 in Toronto. Our attire is complete however is already sent to dry cleaning. Many more things to be taken care of and this has make me feel both excited and overwhelmed. These are the things to worry about:
I think the following is the priority according to the time line:

1. Venue
2. Invitations
3. Catering
4. Music
5. Photography + Videography
6. Cake
7. Flowers

What do you think?

Changes!!

Life is going as beautifully as it can flow. I think my feelings and the way I think now reflects on my behaviour. I can say that there has been changes in me since I've got married. I feel very relaxed, thanks to my pishi. The extent of this is so apparant that people at work noticed it and told me how it shows in my face! I also, show a great deal of resentment for people who B.S.!! Before, may be I could stand them just because I gave them the benefit of experience and doubt but I don't know if its the feeling of knowing more or the feeling of great self confidence that my pishi gives me, that I don't care about people who act selfish or who brag about their ways of life!
Every day I wake up and smile when I see my pishi sleeping beside me. I can't imagine my life without him and can't remember how my life was before he walked into my life.

I had theories on love and read a few books on the concept, and how scientifically I can relate to love. However I truely didn't experience it until I met pishi. His big heart and his great soul, are what attracted me to him, and everyday when we plan and dream about our future, I see his wonderful kindness and sweetness toward me. I can only say one thing, and that I am truely blessed to have him in my life and with each others help we will see our dreams come true, as one of them, having our own company, already came true.

Call Me When You're Sober- Evanescence

Very strong lyrics, when I heard it on the radio, while driving to work. It seems that the music tones are less harsh that previous hits of hers, or may be I am used to her now!Enjoy!

Don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

Should I let you fall? Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself
Can't keep believing
We're only deceiving ourselves
And I'm sick of the lie
And you're too late

Couldn't take the blame
Sick with shame
Must be exhausting to lose your own game
Selfishly hated
No wonder you're jaded
You can't play the victim this time
And you're too late

So don't cry to me
If you loved me
You would be here with me
You want me
Come find me
Make up your mind

You never call me when you're sober
You only want it cause it's over
It's over

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine
So don't cry to me If you loved me
You would be here with me
Don't lie to me
Just get your things I've made up your mind

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Past few weeks have been exteremly busy. Everyday with different event! Halloween was fun both at work and with my friends. I was a cat and my pishi was pink panther. Enjoyed every second of being along with friends on church st. Work is going as usual, I am being trained on some new instrumnts, Karl Fisher and Potentriometric Titration. I was a bit shaky on them before, however now I am confident to answer questions about it! Last week, my pishi got me a variety of different accesories that I love! and that was the highlight of my exitement! Saturday, we joined another group of our friends for college puzzle challenge. I love this challenge and I am eager to start practicing more on those puzzles. Through this challange, I have learned that when you are solving a problem, you need courage, patience and looking outside of the box. It reminded me again of how life can be complex! I have to say that few weeks ago I was restless but since last week, I feel I have reached a point of relaxation and reality! This weekend was fun. Today we bought as many junk as possible!!and cooked after a week of eating out, since both of us couldn't stand it any more!
During lunch time, I sit with a group of women who are around my mom's age. Listening to what they talk about life and love, has been an eye opening experience for me. Some times you need to hear things from some one else's mouth to understand the love of a mother to her kids or how her dreams and prayers are for them.

We are laminating our apartment and everything in the living room is not in the two bedrooms!!But the living room looks great! Honestly who likes carpet?? Laminate will look much nice with persian rugs and sofas! Can't wait for the weekend! I don't know why I am feeling so tired every morning:) I guess as we are going toward winter, I am getting closer to sleeping more because of lack of light. Have to go now, to get ready for work! Can't wait for the weekend!!!

Last week has been full of suprizes. I got to be in the second round of interviews for the apprenticeship program at my company, which was a personality test and I can't wait for the next round, which is apparantly a phone interview!
My U of T classmate who was working in the same department as I am, is going to start a new job at another plant of our company tomorrow. I wish him the best:)
This weekend was fun. We watched "Atash Bas" with my parents, which was completely different than what we expected, on friday night. Did tons of shopping on saturday and furniture shopping today! But along the way we managed to get our relaxation time, which is great when we watch TV, together, in each others arms.
This week, I am hoping to see my friends and catch up with them!I also have to stop by a bookstore to look up the GMAT books and last but not least get ready for Halloween!!I still haven't decided what I want to be!

Suddenly I See - KT TUNSTALL



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I really liked this song when first I heard it on the radio and then I realized it also is the theme song of the movie, The Devil Wears Prada. Enjoy the lyrics!

Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me
I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on her word
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me
And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

I have found married life to be a great deal of fun!!I guess may be because it coincides with living independently as well!!But having a responsible partner helps alot as well. We both do cooking and cleaning together and we basically pass out in each other's arms!
It is said, that when you are happy as a couple, write down all the great things you find in them, so when you are mad at them, it refreshes your memory on why you love your partner so!
To that end, I am writing a few of my pishi's traits that I adore and love:He is kind, caring, generous and calm, Romantic, ambitious, trustworthy and loyal.

Recently, Toronto Star has come up with an interesting ad. On radio, "Why ask why? because if you never ask, you will never know!" I guess some time due to the circumstances of life, we forget to stop and smell the roses and think why certain things are certain way, just because our mind is either occupied with something else or we don't care for certain things. The second phrase, is more interesting to me, since the consequence of not knowing can be severe at times. So in short, I think this ad. is really smart and suits a newspaper! At least it made me think twice about it!

Thanks giving long weekend

Unlike last year, when pishi and I, and a group of my friends went to a cottage, this year we relaxed most of the time and did tons of shopping! Life can not go better than the moments we are together. Friday was our date night. Saturday we went shopping for kitchen appliances and as soon as we got home, pishi made a great banana smoothie! On Sunday, We went to Brik to look at some furniture and loved one and registered for it, although now to think of it, I am a bit airy on that!! Monday we watched a few episode of "smart women survival guide" and went to one of my family friend's house for thanksgiving turkey tradition! It was yummy! Today, is back to work, but I am more relaxed and energetic to go back and start another wonderful week with my pishi:*

Waiting On The World To Change - John Mayer


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I am becoming a fan of John Mayer, this is the first song I have heard by him and I like the lyrics. First time I saw his album, I couldn't beilieve how young he is! I heard his song and I kept thinking that he is a middle aged experienced man! Some how you have to both read the lyrics and read in between the lines! It's the story of the world frustration of the current situations!

So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's hard to beat the system
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change

Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door

When you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information,
Oh they can bend it all they want

That's why we're waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's not that we don't care,
We just know that the fight ain't fair

One day our generation is gonna rule the population

So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

Source: www.completealbumlyrics.com

Finally, I got some time to write something:)..The past few weeks, Pishi and I have been busy with our new apartment and meeting up with friends.
Last sunday, I met with a few of my friends at the Boiler in the Distellary District. It was nice, some how sad that some of my friends are moving to other cities, but I am happy for them since its for their good. One is going for Post. Doc. to Montreal and the other is moving with her fiance in London, Ont.
Monday I got to see my girlfriends at Pickle Barrel. It was nice to see them after a month and half. Listen to the updates in their lives, although they wanted to know everything about my trip to Iran:)
I have been sick for the past week and finally I didn't go to work yesterday. I think I slept for 27 hours!! I think my body is exhusted since I have come back from Iran, from the moving to the new apartment and shopping almost everyday!!
Jobwise, I have applied for an apprenticeship at our company, that I really like to get!Although I might have ruined the chance by challanging the CEO of the company at our departmental meeting, my Director came to me afterwards and congradulated me on the speech well done!!
My current position is going smoothly, specially that my supervisor has been exteremly great and understanding.
Other than that, life is beautiful with my pishi, since he is the most supportive and kind person, I have ever known on this planet. I used to hear that couples who have not been living together once move in together, they start having hard times, but knock on woods, Pishi and I are living so peacefully and in harmoney that as if we have lived together for a long time!

New Life

We finally moved to our new apartment. I like it alot. Actually I really miss it when I go to my mom's place for a few hours. I can really feel that, here is my home now. I still get this wiered feeling when I go back to my ex-room, It's as if I can feel it with every inch in my body, that I have moved away from that era in my life. But suprizingly, I haven't missed it a bit!!
We spent the past weeks putting things in place, buying tons of stuff, which is never ending it seems at this point, and finally last weekend, we moved most of my clothes from my ex-room. Most of the time we were at my mom's place for food but we started our first home made food, egg salad, together. Work is fine, but I can't wait to go back home! There has been a new opportunity at our work place, that I am trying to get. It's a leadership program, where internal employee who get accepted spend 8-12 month rotating in betweeen departments and if successful, they can be hired as supervisors or managers if positions come up. It sounds very exciting to me, specially it covers most of the key elements of our company. I would be the happiest girl on the planet if I get that position for sure, despite it's odd shift hours and locationsm I think it's worth it for sure.
I haven't really talk to anyone of my friend's yet, since I have been busy with moving and work. I have to audit one my friend's paper, but haven't got the time yet!
I am very excited to get our new T.V, furniture and other decorative stuff. And hope that my pishi's parent's invitation goes through and they come to visit us here. I guess in sum, I am very happy at how things are going and if I get that position, things wouldn'g be any better!

BACK!

I am back! with tons of wedding and honey moon stories, family memories and interesting facts about dimonds!! I will get to all of them in time.
I got back last night and today was my first day at work. Everyone showered me with congradulations. I found a very touching card and gift by my trainee who left before I come back in my drawer. I brought chocolates for my team and my friends from Belgium, the chocolate capital of the world. Gifts from Iran for my two managers, director and my supervisor and last but not least to my wonderful trainer. It's good to be back in Toronto and back to my work with my great coworkers.
I can't wait to see my girlfriends and other friends. However before that, my husband, pishi, and I are moving in 2 days and I just got a few minutes to write this post before I forget the beautiful feelings I had today. Carpe Diem!

Vacation

In 4 hours, I am departing Toronto to Tehran. I am exteremly excited and can't wait to reach Tehran. I hope the actual trip from T.O to Amsterdam to Tehran, be smooth. I am not a big fan of airplanes. Last week, I recieved so much love, and attention, that I feel I am walking on the clouds. My company suprized me with a cake with my name on it and gifts. My friends at work took me out for lunch and my group took me out as well and gave a very nice gift to me. Everyone wished me a great time in Iran. Right now, I am waiting for my lova to come and we go to the airport. He is late!!!

Should this be my last post, god forbid, something happens to me, I have to say, that the last 2 years have been the most exciting, romantic and eventful years of my life. I have no regrets and I can't be happier with the great circle of friends, I have and a warm family, and last but not least my handsome and incredible lova. Hopefully, I will be back in 4 weeks!

Cute



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My lova and I !!

Travel planning tips


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Things to avoid for my next trip are as follow:

1. Start reviewing the flight documents(i.e. passport and etc) 3-5 month in advance to avoid any panic about the time they arrive from embassies!!
2. Reserve plane tickets 2-3 month in advance, so they don't fly high on you with the price, specially if leaving druing High season!
3. Start buying gifts according to the # of presents from the time you know you are leaving!
4. If you need to change your living place after you come back, if the moving time is close, Give the notice for some time after so you have time to move calmly after you come back instead of rushing.
5. Proceed calmly in all the steps, and be open to changes, changes won't cause stress, knowing there is still time to adjust.

Doing as per all above, have a happy and fun trip:)

Count down!

11 days are left to my flight to Iran. I am getting more excited by the minute! I am relieved that my mom got her dress, and started buying the gifts! I have 2 more people to go:) The tasks left to fulfill before we go, is to get the tickets hopefully by that time, my friends documents are in place as well! We need to look for more apartments! There was one particular one, that looked amazing to me, but it seems that we might not get it! I am hoping we get it by the time we go or atleast when we come back! I am starting dance pratices from today to the day I leave! Got my hair dresser's appointment both here found out a good one in Iran! Things are going smoothly, and I couldn't be more exicted and happier for things to be fallen in to place the way, they have been.

Phew!

I can breathe easily now:) I got my dress finally and brought it home! Love the dress! I wasn't too sure but I wore it again yesterday evening, it looked beautiful! I just have to make arrangements with the airline and transit on taking it on board.
My passport is here with the rest of the family! Hopefully my friend's visa works out too, actually I know it will work out!
I made my appointment with my hair dresser here as well. So the only things left on the agenda, is the apartment and gifts. We already have started on the apartment, but I hope we get that over soon! As for the gifts, I am planning to buy them this weekend as well. Although still don't know what I should buy!
These days are considered to be one of the best days of my life! And to be honest, they are! The amount of love and affection, I get is amazing:)

As days progress, things that looked like a big dilemma, solves. Our passports will be ready soon. Thank God! I just hope that my friend's visa comes through too! We saw some apartments, yesterday. They are fine, I guess, I think they could have been better! It's interesting that the more you look around, the more you realize what you like to do with an apartment in terms of ideas to upgrade or even decorate! Some people have awsome sence of style! I am glad I am seeing all this. Less than 20 days to my flight to Iran. To be exact 18 day! It's one of those things, that I am both happy and nervious! I am happy to go and see relatives However, a bit worried too. The only thing I guess that is keeping me from movng forwards without no doubts, is my friend.
As people leave my company, either for a better job or to retire, it makes me think about my next steps. Hopefully by November, I get my break too or even start studying again!

As I am getting closer to the day that I am flying to Iran, I realize, how my life is going to change. The tasks to be done are slowly being done. My friend's attire is complete. He looked very handsome in it. My dress will also be ready by the end of this week, hopefully!
I need to call the embassy and follow up with the passports. Still need to get gifts. We looked at some apartments on MLS and now it's time to go and check them out for September. I still need to make an appointment with my hair dresser! and find out a good one in Iran as well!
This weekend, was relaxing! Italy won the world cup and I have officially become a Sudoku lover! I can't stop it! We watched "holly man", a zen type movie, or better say a more spiritual movie and now it's back to work. To be honest, I can't wait for my vacation in August.

It's getting really busy! My last fitting wasn't really the last, needed another adjustment! so hopefully by next week, I can take the dress home. My only concern is how to take it to Iran. It's already cleaned and steamed and perfect. I don't want to give it with my luggage because I don't want to be in the state of panic that, what if it get lost every second of my flight. So the only way is to bring it to the plane and take it with me in transit!I have to arrange that with the airline I guess!
Hopefully my passport is here by then,thanks to the Embassy of Iran!!I wish they had a FAQ online about the problems that people have while applying for documents, so it never happens for other people!
Have to buy the gifts and look for apartments for septmeber! I guess these are the major stuff, and then there is Mohandes stuff that needs to be done, that I don't know if I have time for it!!!so as you see I am a very busy gal at this moment and naturally can get irritated easily! I am planning to see my girl friends before I go to Iran.
I voluntered a month ago to be part of PMP "Proficiency Management Point system" at work. I brought up the idea of involving everyone in the department in a polling system as what they think should a person with such qualifications get points, varying from 1-5 according to the current pointing system. I just have to work more on the application of such poll.
I need to make sure that my friend's tuxido is fine as well. So hopefully this weekend we can get that steamed as well.
What else is left to do?

Happy Canada Day!


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Canada day was on saturday this year hence we got a nice 3 day vacation! The tuesday after the long weekend is always starts with being sleepy but some how energetic!It was fun! I went shopping with my mom on friday after work! I got off work at 2:30 and we hit the road to the Italian neighbourhood. Big mistake!! First we had a hard time finding parking because it has Itay vs. Ukraine and then when Italy won 3-0, it was a huge celebration. we could only see a few stores, and came back with the biggest headache ever!!!However my friend, came to my rescue, we got our sandwitch and fries and headed to a very quite park and eat with peace!

The morning after, we "watched love in the afternoon". It was very interesting. It was the story of a detective who would find out about people's affairs and his daughter got involved with one of his cases! Mostly we rested that day, we went to Elephant and the king for lunch and watched Brazil vs. France and to my disbeilieve France won!!

Sunday a group of 13 of us went to Rockwood conservation area. I highly recommond it. It has sandy beach, hicking trail and canoeing facilities! We all enjoyed a day of fun and ended at one of our friends house for dinner, poetry and dance.


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Monday was the relaxing day! My friend and I watched "kiss me, stupid" another fun old movie and finished the day with milstones and sloving Sudoku. It's a numerical puzzle and very interesting. I have seen people play at break times in our company but never played it and last night while we were waiting for our dinner to arrive, after ordering the dinner, I decided to give it a try and it's actually very fun!

Now it's the tuesday after, and it's hard to go back to the reality!

It's going to be an interesting month, July, I mean. Come to think of it, my major turning points in life happened in July and started new stuff in August! Although with all the stuff going through and tasks to be done, my friend and I managed to enjoy our weekend and watched soccer games and watch few movies. Well 3 in total!
Pride Parade was on the weekend too. This year I just popped out for Dike and only for 30 minutes. I personally try not to judge anyone, specially on something like sexual orientation. However, I am not a big fan of watching naked bodies walking on the street. I think cloth, are nicer to be worn, with all different colors and styles and matching accessories!
It seems everything is going according to the plan, smoothly! We bought the taxido for my friend on Saturday. I finished Mohandes stuff for now. Finally, set the dates and signed the vacation sheet for my supervisor. Started running and exercises and push ups and trying to eat healthier. I need to start my dance practices too! The major things I have to do is to send an envelope to the embassy, so they can release my documents faster. And hope that my Canadian passport is not expiring in the next 3 month!!I hope my friend can get his visa from Netherlands as well. We still need to check up on some apartments as well. Everything looks tiny compare to my house:( Last but not least my friends and I are planning of some sort of out doors activity this long weekend, canoeing or beach may be:)

Ain't No Other Man- Christina Aguilera


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Christina Aguilera is back after a while, with her new song, which is moving down the chum chart quickly! Enjoy the lyrics!

I could feel it from the start,
Couldn't stand to be apart.
Something 'bout you caught my eye,
Something moved me deep inside!
I don't know what you did boy but you had it
And i've been hooked ever since.

I told my mother, my brother, my sister and my friends
I told the others, my lovers, both past and present tense.
That everytime I see you everything starts making sense.

Ain't no other man, can stand up next to you
Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do.
You're the kinda guy, a girl finds in a blue moon.
You got soul, you got class.
You got style, look at your ass - oh yeah!
Ain't no other man its true - alright -
Ain't no other man but you.

Never thought I'd be alright.
No, no, no!
Till you came and changed my life.
Yeah, yeah, yeah!
What was cloudy now is clear!
Yeah, yeah!
You're the light that I needed.
You got what I want boy, and I want it!
So keep on givin' it up!

Tell your mother, your brother, your sister, and your friends.
and the others, your lovers, better not be present tense.
Cause I want everyone to know that you are mine and no one else's!

Break it down now!
Ain't no other, ain't, ain't no other!
Ain't no other, ain't, ain't no other LOVER!
Ain't no other, I, I, I need no other!
Ain't no other man but you! Ohhhh!

You are there when I'm a mess
Talk me down from every ledge
Give me strength, boy you're the best
You're the only one who's ever passed every test
Ain't no other man, can stand up next to you
Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do (what you do).
And now I'm tellin you son, ain't no other man but you

www.metrolyrics.com

Bruce Almighty


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My friend's graduation on Friday, was fun. We started celebrating, from 5:00 to 12:00!! Starting from her school, to a Chinese restaurant, to deseart place next to AliCatz! It has been a while since I have seen my friends, and it was fun. Sat. I couldn't watch Iran Vs. Portugal game, but as anticipated, Iran lost. In the evening, My friend and I went to Marija's wedding. It was fun to see all the couples there and teasing each other. The wedding was mostly Eastern European style. Interesting music and nice dances. We didn't get to dance much. Mostly talking about Muna's honey moon pictures and Samer's puzzles!Sunday was father's day, so my Arman and I decided to buy our dad a gift. So shirt it was! Later I joined my friend. Had lunch at LOC 4. It was a very relaxing place and the food was good. We watched Bruce Almighty. It was fun. Better than the rest of Jim Carrey's movies. After a busy weekend. I will start a busy week too! We have to buy a suit for my friend and I have to go to my second fitting. Mohandes meeting and trying to reserve some flight tickets and look for a new place to live!And more importantly, get my passport from Embassy!!!

It's amazing how small incidents in your life, can determine, how you would act again if you are in the same situtation, or even how you will behave in general. Basically, in my opinion, experiences, can make you a totally different person, than you used to be. I, myself, have noticed, how my driving experiences, have made me grow up. Initially, when I started driving, I was very cautious and would over analyze everything. After a while, that I became more comfortable with my car and the concept of speed, then I became very impatient, and could predict most of the moves by the cars around me. It made me over confident, and think that I know better. After, the fuel incident, I realized, that you can not predict everything. Once again, driving is like, life. In life, if you are knowlegable, meaning that you are aware of things happening around you, you can predict with a good approximation. However, there are events, that are not predictable and you have to set a variable or a in the margin of error on your decision. Now I guess the question is, how would you decrease the risk of failure in any form, different people define failure differently based on their ideals and priorities?Are risk and playing safe,an inverse function of each other?

World Cup Soccer



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The cruise was great! I thought it won't be as pleasant since, it's during the week day, but on the contrary, it was very relaxing and fun!We requested a salsa song and danced to it after a while being away from salsa music. I definitely have to start dancing every day again. I played Rolet for the first time with fake money on that boat! Kept winning!
Saturday was the shopping and relaxing day! I can't believe after having all the ideals of making things affordable for everyone and how the global economy is going toward that direction, there are still stores that "only serves the very wealthy people!!!!". I finished watching 3 movies!!I watched the rest of the Pink Panther up to the production of the new 2006 movie and watched Office Space. Office space was okay, had some interesting points in the movie, but I give it a 2.5 out of 5 points.
World cup soccer started on Friday, June 9th,2006. Sunday was Iran Vs. Mexico game! My mom was so excited that she had bought Iran's flag and installed it on the window of her car. Actually since North York has a lot of Iranians, as you walk or drive on Yonge st. Between Sheppard and Steels specially, you see lots of cars with Iran's flag.
Ofcourse we have 3 types of flags too!!!The flag issue is complicated by it self. I remember around 6-7 years ago there was an article in one of Iranian newspapers at U of T, about the origin of Persian flag.
Anyways, Iran lost to Mexico, and hence all the partying that we were planning to do on Yonge st. Went down the drain! Howeverended up to be good for me, since I rested a bit and then started looking at some apartments on MLS!! Played, Rami and then went to Marche with my friend and had the best Trimasiou ever!!
The weekend to come is very exciting! First on friday is one of my closest friend's graduation and on saturday, is Marjia's weddin!! So partying from morning till dawn!

Last night, was my first time, to be the chair/MC of an event at Mohandes. The panel, was very interesting. The panelists talked about what truely was in their hearts and tried to give advice as best as they can. I personally learned alot and met some fantstic people. Being a chair/MC is not as scary as it seems! I enjoyed actually enjoyed the experience. Tonight, My friend and I are invited for a VIP Cruise on lake Ontario! So it paid off to be a VIP;)Hope the weather is great. Other than that, I am trying to focous at tasks on hand. Next project is the science and technology seminar, that if I can do it in July, I would be a happy camper!

It's always great to see friends succeed. One of my classmates, might be on a great job in a few month, working as a city counselors. Muna is back from her honeymoon, Maryam's graduation and Marjia's wedding are in two weeks. Wow! What an event ful summer!!Everyone is getting married and graduated and moving on with their lives. I am glad that I am moving as well, despite the fact that it feels that my steps are as slow as a turtle to me!!But honestly, I can't wait to get my break! The only thing that bothers me is that, I don't know if in the mean while I should be doing more, researching more options or just stop and finish up what I have in hand? Timing is everything, so they say!

Last Friday, I managed to empty out my car's fuel tank on the DVP Hi-Way!!!Had to wait for CAA to help me out and tow me to the nearest Esso!!What did I learn? That my tank volume is 60.034 Liters and when the fuel is dangariously low, the light does not go red!!What kind of a system is this? Aren't we suppose to have a danger levels!Anyways I got home safe and sound, but I am going to get CAA membership, not tail gate other drivers! and be patient and forgiving on the road. I have more consideration for people stuck beside the road, now. And last but not least, Thank god for my parents, and my beloved friend, who supported me, in my stupid experiment!!Without you, I don't know what I would have done.

Crazy

I finally got the time to sit down and write something! Everything is going as plans, or it seems, I bought my shoes and did my first appointment for the dress. Got the 4 weeks vacation I wanted, Got the passports sent out for the embassy. Hoping that they arrive back to me on time!! Mean while, I was busy with Mohandes start up with the new board. We are going to have our first event planned, in Wednesday, which is about "Secrets of success of the professionals in Canada". I have started watching Pink Panther's movies since Saturday! They are funny but in a way an evolution to Mission Impossible series! Work is fine, I am training a new graduate in my group. She is my shadow but we have became good friends:) The interesting thing is that you never know how much you know, unless you decided to speak about them or write them down!! My supervisor and my original trainer, think that I am good teacher!!At least that's what they told me so! I guess I feel responsible to show her everything I know. Other than that, by a miracle I found some leads in a new position, I am planning to fill!!Let's see how it goes. The next 6 month, will be busy for me, hope it goes smoothly! Other than the busy schadules, this is the new song, that I fell in love with!!


Crazy- Gnarls Barkley

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that place
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space
And when you're out there
Without care, Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Probably
And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice
That's my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you're in control
Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me
My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember
Is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done
But maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Probably
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To my surprise, everything is going well with Mohandes June gathering planning. I never thought everything would go so smoothly! This meeting will be interesting, since it will be on the secrets of success for Iranian Canadians immigrants in Canada. The moderator is set and we are off to go. The advertisement partly is done but will be completely done soon. The only thing now I have to worry about is the science and technology seminar! After that, I can rest in peace for a while!! The hunt for a nice pair of shoes continue and have to follow up with my manager about the vacation time and get a new my passport! I have factored other shopping and tailoring!!Very busy month to come!

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Long weekend

The long weekend was exactly what I needed after being busy for so long. Saturday was Muna's wedding, She looked beautiful and I was practically in tears in church. Her reception was great and she looked very happy. I wish her and Goerge a fantastic life together. Sunday morning, My friend and I went to look for shoes. I loved the Town Sheos store comapre to other ones. Specailly there were 2 shoes that looked great! after wards, we watched Evita. Evita, is based on a broadway musical performance, about one of the first ladies of Argantina. The movie was a musical one but also political. I enjoyed it alot. Monday was more relaxing, I played poker with my brothers and spend some time with my friend. After three days of vacation it's really hard to go back to work but I can't wait for a long vacation;)

Mohandes

In the new board of Mohandes, I will continue with the secratary position but also hold the head of science and technology sub-committee, I think it's important to help bring young generation with new research into Mohandes. The result is positive for both the speaker, who will be talking about their master or Ph.D thesis, and the audiance who might be interested in implimenting the ideas in the future. For the first time, I felt abit isolated in the new board, since the # of ladies in the group in total is 2 out of 10. I think this would be a great opportunity for me to practice many things this year. From being a mediator, to how to approach speakers for the events. My goal this year is to innitiate more ideas and try to promote it with the help of the rest of the board. Aside from the community work, I am going to talk to manager for vacation time! I hope I can squeez 4 weeks! I am also excited for the long weekend. Hope the weather be great.

Excited!!

So I finally got the dress. It is perfect. It's the combination of everything I like!!But took us two weeks to find it and I had to not go to work yesterday to spend the whole day looking and finally buying it with my vail and my tiara! Now it's shoe shopping time, so they can alter the bottom of the dress for me. I can't beilieve I finally did it! Last night was Lina's good bye dinner at the famous milestones that we love! she is moving to Montreal for a while for a fantastic job she got there. I will miss her for sure but I am happier that she is excelling in her field. Christin is starting a new positionat Shell too!It seems everyone is moving one step higher. I hope that I get the job that I want too! We all were excited for Muna's and Marjia's wedding. This saturday, Muna's wedding is going to be fantastic! My official IAUT term is over and I can breathe that at least one of my responsibilites are off my shoulder. The only thing I will be focousing this year is Mohandes, which is my last year from my social work, and career developement strategies with my sweetie on my side.

I have been so busy, that I couldn't go to the session about Ramin's arrest. It's a shame and sad that an intellectual person like him, who really don't need to be in Iran, but because of his love of change in people's mindset for better, be arrested. I miss Agora sessions, I used to go every saturday when he was here, even years after he left Toronto, but I guess life goes on and I missed this saturday's one.
The great part of this weekend was to visit my good friends visiting from Iran and their precious baby:) It was great to gather up again with old friends. I enjoyed my time there. After wards, my friend and I went to a birthday party, which was fine. The party room was very spacious and nice for dancing. However we mostly talked that dance! I know that's weired, just talk no dance??It's funny, I guess I was too tired.

Shopping for dresses continue! I am begining to realize that finding the perfect dress that you dreamed might not exhist!!;)

The past few days was full of events! My classmates with their significant others for the first time, met up for Christine's birthday. We went to Grazie and enjoyed the rest of the night by going to Acrobat, a salsa club. It has been a while since I had gone to a salsa club. It was really fun. We said our good byes and will see each other again on May 20th for Muna's wedding. I am so excited since one month after Muna's wedding is Marjia's wedding. Can't wait to see both of their weddings. I am sure they are beautiful. I can't beilieve I will go through the same experience, I am sure it's going to be interesting. Ofcourse with the help of my favorite person on the planet!
Today I am planning to meet some other girlfriends. Speciall I like to see one of my friends who is studying MBA part time, need to ask some questions from her!


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I can not beilieve he has been arrested!! He is the founder of Agora sessions at U of T. Agora is a Greek word meaning a place for dicussion. He taught me philosophy from the begining to post modernism. I met a lot of my friends during those classes. I learned and grew up alot by knowing him and the friend I made there. His topics were most of the time about different aspects of tradition vs. modernity. I hope he get released soon.

You may not like a situation or work. I used to not like Raw Material testing because of tidious chemical we use. But I put my heart into it and now I like it, Nalinin said to me. Nalinin is my mentor and she tells me about her experiences and helps me with any method questions and anything that I might not sure how to do! I couldn't belived what she said!because she is one of the most knowledgable people in my group! she knows everything!!She is just wonderful. What she said to me yesterday really touched me and made me think about can do's V.S can't do's. If you put your heart and soul into it, you will win the situation!

Yesterday, I got a phone call from one of my co-workers at the last company I worked for. Apparantely they are thinking to give a position in Research and Developement!!She called me to see if I am interested or not!!I am now tempted to choose! but I am pretty happy at Novopharm. Thinking!Thinking!

Also I got to meet more of my friend's friends visiting T.O. We ended up going to Marche for deseart! I enjoyed pleasent conversations and great waffle with mixed burry and strawberry, chocolate sauce and wipe cream on it!!. I should start burning those calories now!

Taxes + Suprize!


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Last weekend, for the first time I did my taxes with the help of my friend. It took us a while but I am glad that I did it myself. If I get some time, I would like to read the who package line by line carefully!
Sunday afternoon was my friend's,Muna, suprize wedding shower! She got very suprized to see us at Milestones! with pink balloons!! The scrap book that we put together looked amazing. Thanks to one of the girls in the group with amazing artistic talent. She was pleasently suprized and touched when she got the book. This friday also the girls from my chem-eng class will meet again to celebrate Christine's birthday and go for some salsa dancing afterwards. I haven't been dancing for a while, I am looking froward to dancing!I have to start thinking really seriously about my future!well not really long term but short ones!Planning the biggest day of my life sometimes scares me, but with my great help it should be a fun period. Muna, looked vibrant and so looking forward to life after she got married. I wonder how I would feel when I get closer to my big day!
Yesterday, out of the blue, my manager told me that she likes my name!!And she has read this name in the old testiment stories!!!I got to find out which story this is!!Never thought my name was linked religiously!

Walk Away- Kelly Clarkson

Hiking on Sunday was refreshing. I couldn't believe I can walk that long and I owe it all to my suitable new shoes!! Apparantly with proper gears anything is possible!! A group of 6 of us walked from Leslie and Eglinton to College and Yonge.

Face to face communication and time makes misinterpretation via email or other means of communication to resolve. Time allows the parties to calm down and the relationship smooth at for a while. At least that's what I have learned from last night discussion in one of my social activities. Is there any correlation with sensitivity and keeping it professional?

Kelly Clarkson's new song will be another hit! She is the first artist who has had more than 4 hit songs in one CD release!Enjoy walk away!

You’ve got your mother and your brother
Every other undercover telling you what to say
You think I’m stupid but the truth is that it’s cupid
Baby loving you has made me insane
So before you point your finger
Get your hand off of my trigger
You need to know the situations getting old
And now the more you talk the less I can take

I’m looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go
Well if you don’t have the answer
Why you still standing here

Hey, hey, hey, heyJust walk away

I waited here for you like a kid waiting after school
So tell me, how come you never showed
I gave you everything and never asked for anything
And look at me, I’m all alone
So before you start defending
Stop all your pretendingI know you know I know so what’s the point of being slow
Let’s get this show on the road today

I want a love
I want a fire
To feel the burn, my desires
I want a man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me, die for me
Live and breathe for me
Do you care for me
Cause if you don’t then just leave

Long weekend!



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So the long weekend is finally here!!It started from thursday night, girls night out, 5 girls having fun at Marche, talking about their lives and trying to have fun!After wards my 2 friends and I went to Deseart Place, to have tea and more cake!!we overdosed sugar that night!!Firday, my friend and I decided to try Elephant and Castle Bar, we went for lunch and the food was great!I would definately go there again. I always thought its an Indian place but actually it's a British place!After wards we decided to play some pool. The pool house was nice, I would have enjoyed more of my time there, if I really knew what I was doing!I basically suck at playing Biliard! I need practice for sure.



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Saturday, my friend and I decided to do some outdoorsy activity. So we decided to go to Darlington Provencial Park. We had a picnic by Lake Ontario! Next we decided to walk on the trail of Petticoat Creek Conservation Area. In summer I have been there several time, and its dreamy! It was very fresh and amazing yesterday as well. After wards we went for Boston Pizza, since I have heard about it alot but never got the chance to try!The food and the ambiance were both fine. I am going hiking with a group of my friends down DonVally track in Toronto today! I hope I can finish and not be dead by the end of it!!Till now, This weekend has been super fun and don't want to end it!

Bowling



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I try to make each and every moment of my life worth while. To that end, I like to break my habits and try new things all the time. I have been watching alot of movies since last year. Thanks to my friend who has a magnificant collection of all different types of movies. I watch La Divorce on sunday. It is the story of coflict resolution of a couple with two different culture whom one wants to end the relationship and the other don't, and how they tried to resolve it as open-mindedly as possible. Aside from their problems were family affairs as well. It was an everyday story to some extent of relationships in real life. When in love, cultural differences seem to be minor however things can become truely hurtful at the times of conflict.

Last night, my friend and I decided to go bowling after nearly a year! It was my second time, and on contrer to my thought,that we would be bored, it was really fun. So many people were there!!I can't wait to go next time and hopefully I play better as time progresses;) Also I like to revist the idea of biliard night! It seems that these two activities are great for after work fun times. Does not consume alot of energy!But to my suprise, I am finding physical activity after work is not that bad after all!I was just not used to it.

10 commandments



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This coming weekend, is the long weekend. I can't stop dreaming about all the things I would like to do!!Well I already have planned my girls night out on Thursday night. But for once this long weekend is open to any opportunity. This week, I was reading Mark Twin's short stories. I found they are very logical and up to the point so far. I watched 10 commandments in two series last night and the night before. It had been a while since I really watched anything religious. It always makes me think, that if I was in that time, which way I would have chosen. To be with the prophets or to be with the groups against with the knowledge of that time?Would I have believed him and his message? This version of the movie had nice special effects. However, I honestly felt how frustrated Moses was when he was trying to convince people to BELIEVE! Believe in something that they can't see, just it's powers! Well, I think If I could think logical then I would have been with him and believing in God. But at the same time, is this belief because of I was scared of God and the punishment or was because I truly believed in him?

BBQ




Yesterday, My friend and I were invited to our first BBQ party of 2006!! The BBQ facility was on the roof of a 27 storey tall building! It would have been more fun if the weather was warmer, but convinced that we are going to enjoy ourselves despite the cold weather, a group of fun seeking boys and girls stood by the grill! Afterwards we watched Sleepy Hollow, and I enjoyed Johnny Depp in that movie.

Fighting the Fire



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Yesterday, I had fire fighting training at my company. I signed up for this training since I am interested in learning about different emergancey responses of any kind from first aid, CPR and fire now. We learned virtually how to put down fires of all classes. There are 3 general classes of fire, A,B,C. I thought the following might be of interest to know!

Class A fires, is from the sources such as trash, paper, cloth, wood

Class B fires is from flammable liquid sources

Class C fires, is electrical fires

For class A, water distinguishers are used, but for class B and C, Co2 distinguishers are used.

The classes that a fire extinguisher can be used are written on the label of the fire extinguisher. For houses, fire extinguishers that can fight class A,B and C are recommended. Fire extinguishers are suppose to be inspected 6 years from the first purchase to be recharged and on the life time is only 12 years. The life time of Fire detectors for houses are only 10 years!!and nthe batteries need to be checked and changed every year when we change the clocks.

The important steps in using a fire ditinguishers are: PASS

P - pull the safety pin
A - aim at the base of the fire
S - squeeze the lever
S - sweep side to side at the base of the fire

The most interesting fact of yesterdays training was that fire extinguishers are only good for a short amount of time. Meaning that a 5 pound fire extinguisher can fight fire for 5 seconds. Meaning that a pound per second is the capacity of the fire extinguishers. Therefore it's a must that if you shoose to fight the fire yourself to have another person behind you with another fire extinguisher to back you up.

Where Is The Love - Black Eyed Peas

Black Eyed Peas is a fairly new group, I found that their music is a mixture of different cultures. This song hits me hard because I think it says what I like to say but with rythem. Enjoy.

What's wrong with the world mama?
People living like aint got no mamas
I think the whole worlds addicted to the drama
Only attracted to the things that bring you trauma

Overseas yeah we tryin to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin
In the USA the big CIA the Bloodz and the Crips and the KKK

But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And if you hatin you're bound to get irate

Yeah madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
You gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love y'all

People killing people dying
Children hurtin you hear them crying
Can you practice what you preach
Would you turn the other cheek?
Father Father Father help us
Send some guidance from above
Cause people got me got me questioning
Where is the love?

It just ain't the same all ways have changed
New days are strange is the world the insane?
If love and peace so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations dropping bombs
Chemical gases filling lungs of little ones
With ongoing suffering
As the youth die young
So ask yourself is the loving really strong?

So I can ask myself really what is going wrong
With this world that we living in
People keep on giving in
Makin wrong decisions
Only visions of them livin and
Not respecting each other
Deny thy brother
The wars' going on but the reasons' undercover

The truth is kept secret
Swept under the rug
If you never know truth
Then you never know love

Where's the love y'all?
Where's the truth y'all?

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm getting older y'all people get colder
Most of us only care about money makin
Selfishness got us followin the wrong direction

Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting their young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what the see in the cinema

Whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness and equality

Instead of spreading love, we're spreading anomosity
Lack of understanding, leading us away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling down
It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feeling under
I gotta keep my faith alive, until love is

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13th day of Bahar

Some 25 of us decided to enjoy the 13th day of Bahar in Toronto Islands, specifically Centre Island. Playing soccer, vassati, barbequing chicken and eating all sorts of goodies, hot tea in the cold weather with the company of great friends made our sunday the best. Ofcourse the aftermass is the muscle ache,skin burns and chill that takes a week to come out of my system;)but truely a memorable day. On monday night I heard that one of my dear friends, Rouin, has passed away. He had Leukimia and despite his hope and courage for 27 month, his body gave up when the high dose of chemo for bone transplant were administered to him. His ceremony will be on saturday and I will be participating in Zoroasteriam ceremony. May his soul rest in peace, His smile, his courage will be my example, in his very short life, he was a great friend with tons of courage to move to unknown and try different things. We will miss you.

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Persian culture, is rich with different bahavioural puzzles. Livinging in Canada has made me free from those puzzles and gave the chance to practice kindness,thoughtfullness, respect from my culture. I learned to be direct in Canada to avoid misunderstandings. I learned that miscommunication due to different preceptions of things due to individual history,culture and language is common. So I learned to be as careful as possible when I speak, to make sure my listener knows exactly what I am talking about. That has made me free of twisting people's words for myself, thinking that they might have different meanings. I always try to take people as they are, and not to take what they are saying about certain things that are part of my life, personal. It took me 8 years now,since I have been in this multiculture country, that I have been practicing and learning and keep on learning, on how to make my life and people around me less complicated with misunderstandings. This is no easy task, again for me to learn more, I had to keep quite and listen, truely listen to what is spoken. Think. and then act on it. There were times, that I was speaking with haste when I was a teenager. But I am glad that I am growing up and my experiences are making me a better person every day.

Stupid Girls- Pink

The new pink track-stupid girls- is trying to voice up a concern toward the young generation watching the media and trying to find a role model for themselves. I admire her sence of responsibilty and her action toward it. I truely beilieve that artists and famous people, who people listen to, have a big responsibilty toward the progressing of the society. Below is a part of, stupid girls.

Stupid girl, stupid girls, stupid girls
Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl

Go to Fred Segal, you'll find them there
Laughing loud so all the little people stare
Looking for a daddy to pay for the champagne

What happened to the dreams of a girl president
She's dancing in the video next to 50 Cent
They travel in packs of two or three
With their itsy bitsy doggies and their teeny-weeny tees

Where, oh where, have the smart people gone?
Oh where, oh where could they be?

Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back
What a paparazzi girl, I don't wanna be a stupid girl
Baby if I act like that, flipping my blond hair back
Push up my bra like that,
I don't wanna be a stupid girl

Disease's growing, it's epidemic
I'm scared that there ain't a cure
The world believes it and I'm going crazy
I cannot take any more
I'm so glad that I'll never fit in
That will never be me
Outcasts and girls with ambition
That's what I wanna see
Disasters all around
World despaired
Their only concernWill they **** up my hair

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Emotional Vs. Logical

Emotional:A person who determine or actuate by emotion rather than reason.
Logical:A person capable of or reflecting the capability for correct and valid reasoning

When I was younger, when I would get angery. I would get very very upset, which ended up in me crying by myself. Later I discovered writing my emotions and why I am upset and angry will reduce my level of anger and makes me calm down. It has been a few years and now that I look back I feel I have gone a long way from a small girl who could not control her emotion to a young woman who is still striving to learn ways of keeping it calm. It is always easier when you are not face to face, to write a note and also defend yourself. But I still lack the courage to be face to face with a conflict. I find writing as soon as I am angry, then looking back at the note a few hours later, I can prove my points logically rather than emotionally. I can still be logicall to myself when I am upset but to myself, because I don't communicate efficiently while I am upset with others so it will end up to be an emotional statement, which as you see in the dictionary definition, not considered to be within reason. But I always wonder, would being logical all the time make a robot out of you?isn't being emotional part of being a human?

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Canadian Idol 3, Rex Goudie, has some cool lyrics. Here is his "Run" that is cruising down the chum chart! I must say that I have been very busy with my good friend birthday party on friday, my dad's b-day on sat. and our family friend party last night. It was great to see everyone that I somehow call my family here after a few month of absence;) Work is fine!solving mystries!I got job opportnuities!I got phone calls after the new year about a Quality Engineer position at ATS!seems interesting..Although one of my mentor's don't beilieve so!!and wants me to stick with pharma!This year with a permanent position that I have, I can cruise easier with my benefits. Also my love, my heart and my soul is by my side. His encouragemments and beileving in me, makes me the luckiest girl alive:)

Run-REX GOUDIE LYRICS

We're just two people
Riding in circle
That's spinning around
Just everyday people
Searching for something
We've Already Found
And I'm just a guy Who's in love with a girl
Not in front of me
Now you're so far away
And I need you right here in my arms
Baby just runTake a bus,
Take a Plane
Take a train
Baby just run Run as fast as you can
Girl you'll find your way back
'Cause no matter wherever you are
There's no place on this earth thats to far,
RunWe're just two people
Wishing that we were together tonight
Just everyday people
Trying to make sense of this puzzle called life
And I'm just a guy Who's in love with a girl
Not in front of me
Now you're so far away
And I need you right here in my arms
So baby just run
Take a bus,
Take a planeTake a train
Baby just run
Run as fast as you can
Girl you'll find your way back
'Cause no matter wherever you are
There's no place on this earth thats to far,
Run
Sooner or later it's over
Passing you by and it's gone
There's Not enough time left to wonder
If your where you belong
Take a bus,
Take a plane,
Take a train
So Baby just Run Take a bus,
Take A plane,
Take a train
Baby Just run
Run as fast as you can
Girl you'll find your way back
'Cause no matter wherever you are
There's no place on this earth thats too far,
Run

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Norouz

I was so busy that I didn't have time to update. So now Happy Norouz with 2 days delay;). I wish the best for all my friends and whoever reads this blog. Hope all your dreams transforms to reality. Under The Azure Dome festival which 100s of people helped to organized, went smoothly and around 15000 people visited the festival. I was glad that among them were non-Iranians who came and told me personally that they enjoyed it alot. I, myself, tried to make the atmosphere more like an image of Iran, not modern, by wearing a traditional Iranian costum. My target audiance were Iranian kids who were born here or came here when they were young and make them interested in their culture and non-Iranians who visited the festival. I consider this festival a success and a big thumbs up to all the people who helped in any form or way:)

Spring

A few days left to spring and after ~9 years of living in Canada, this is the first year that I completely and uterly feel like Norouz is coming. The same feeling that I had while growing up in Iran. I guess one of the reasons is the mild weather and one can be the excitement of Azure Dome Festival! It's going to be fantastic and great. I hope more Non Iranian come to this festival so they can have a sence of our Norouz and culture. The coming weeks are going to be extra busy with Mohandes and Azure dome and parties!!can't wait for all the excitment!to tell you the trueth I am getting a bit board:P

Hard Rock Cafe



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Finally my friend and I had the pleasure of dining at Hard Rock Cafe last night. We meant to go there so many times but the timing was never good. The food was fine but what captures you most is the environment, the collection of clothing and musical instruments used by different artists. We saw nickel back guitar, Madonna's outfit in one her shows and etc. I recommend experiencing the fun in the cafe:)

Life Vs. Driving simulation

I have been thinking alot while driving to similarities between roads, drivers, behavious and construction. I can see a small version of life in this small process. For example, When you are entering to the high way through the ramp, which normally is only one lane, all drivers are back to back in a line. You can't by pass anyone, but as soon as you reach to the spot that you have detached lines you can change lane and by pass. Now, some people do it as soon as they get the chance, some people wait. You would think that the people who changed the lane first would get faster ahead since they have moved up with the more flowing traffic!but wait, there are exception to this rule, TRAFFIC, which in this case can be one of those occasions in life that you planned on but suddenly you see that things are not going with tht right paste. I have noticed that in some instances regardless of how many cars you by pass it is very possible that you all get to the destination with few seconds difference. So why race? why be aware of the surrounding and take the chances when opportunities become available?sometimes it works and some times it doesn't. Some times in life you get ahead and sometimes you go with the flow. Now sweating over an opportunity would not necessarily be worth it. Atleast that's what I have found. I like to be the winner all the time. But that's not possible!sometimes you have to keep your eyes on the prize and if it means that you will go with the flow now, but later would fly ahead then so be it. For example. On bayview and John heading north, if you keep on the right lane you would get ahead fast than if you take the left one, despite the fact that the left lane is suppose to be the faster moving one!!I have gathered lots of other examples by just observing, trial and error. Ofcourse there are drivers that think, they know the best and everyone is either slow or a fool!now, those drivers who take other's right of way, make me really mad.(and that's when it makes me think about becoming a police officer!). I have done some experiments of those situations too. Now lets say a driver took your right of way or broke the rule of not turing right on red light when the sign is there, I have noticed that the despite the fact that they think the are smart and could manage a few second to go ahead but still will be behind me!!why you ask? because like life, somepeople's ambition finishes with one win!but others keep on going!..To be continued.

Oscar

This weekend flew by way too fast!Saturday my friend and I watched ,Election, A teen movie, which I don't recommend!!and participated int he debate about the Prophet Mohammad's cartoon discussion. I think it's very interesting to hear that there are still people who think like I do! Afterwards tea at Tim Horton with the rest of the friends and head off to Swiss Chalet for dinner. Playing pool and foosball was the high lights of the night!!I enjoyed myself alot:) Sundy my friend and I did some tax calculations and tried to watch ,Being Julia, but no luck to finish it! since we had guests coming over and to help my mom:) we watched the Oscar with the guests and I should admit that under no other circumstance, I would have watched Oscar again alone!!I thin it would be completely waste of my sleeping hours;) I will watch it though with friends!But even if I don't watch it I will check for the ruslts to make sure my favorite actor and actresses have won:)

Death

It's always very hard to lose a friend. Specially if you lost them to death. Since there is no return. I keep thinking about him. How healthy he looked. How he was into right food and exercise. How I thought he would make it big. But he left all his dreams, his phD. defense, his kids and his wife. So sudden. Why is it that the moment we think we are okay, and will win, we get hit hardest?This post is to the memory of my dear friend, Amit, who I learned alot from him through all our discussions about life (2003-2004). You will be missed.

Toronto Symphony Orchestra


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Yesterday, My brother, my friend and I went for an event at Roy Thomson Hall presenting TSO featuring,Bugs, Birds & Beasts!. The musical performance of how different instruments can be related to different animals. Most of the Hall was filled with kids! But it was really fun. Specially when they started playing a piece by xylophone, called Fossil!! It rushed back all the memories of my childhood when I use to play the recorder and xylophone. It was really fun. The longest piece was Carnival of the Animals by Camille Saint-Saans featuring all different animals such as Hens, Bumble bee, Elephant and etc.! What intrigues me the most is the Harps. I like to someday learn and play that instrument. I feel it's one of those instrument that the sound takes you to fairy tales!

Believe

In my life, I have seen many people with different views about life, after life, God and etc. Some think they believe, Some fake it and some deny it and some really truly believe. Last night I was at the mourning of one of my friend's grandmother and I heard the following conversation.

-X is very depressed. I don't know what she can do to get better.

-Why don't she start believing (in God)?

This made me think, does believing to any thing, can me us survive certain situations? Also how can we determine how much believe is required for making things happen?I have heard stories of miracles and what happened to that end. But it always is a big question mark in my mind; How much strength/beilieve/focous is enough? And how much is too much, that will confront others belief?

Analytical Specialist

After 4 days of trying and trying to prove a limit test. Finally after tons of procedures, it worked!!I can't beilieve it despite the supplier's strange concentrations, despite the USP method,(didn't work with my supplier claim!)..when they all went wrong..I finally found a way to figured it out..when PhonolPhethalien became faint pink at 0.1 mL, gave me the biggest pleasure of the day!!It was an interesting investigation. My supervisor told me to be proud of myself!!seeing the damn pink colour;)Apparantly I am now an Analytical specialist in Qaulity Control! May be things are falling into the right position when you least expect it! just a wild thought. I hope it continue filling the voids!

Well last week was a different week. My mom got sick a bit and I took her to hospital!thank god, they didn't find anything alarming. Friday night my friend and I check KEG out!!I have never been there, so we were excited to go. KEG, they people I found at KEG were mostly middle aged married people. Or people in their 30's who were on a date! I couldn't spot many 20 something people there. Saturday was great my friend and I was invited to one of our friend's house. We watched a movie that I don't remember the name!!and most importantly we played Poker Texas Hold'm!and guess who won!!Yes, me me me me;)it was a very pleasent night. Sunday we watched, American Jigalo(the comedy version) and When Harry met Sally. I like Meg Ryan alot. She is the sweetest girl ever! I should say now that I started streching, I like to do it more:)

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy valentine's day to all the people who are in love, want to be in love!,and have been in love for several years and still in love since god knows it might go wrong;)

Memoirs of a Geisha


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The weekend was fun. Saturday, My friend and I watched Memoirs of a Geisha. It is a dark film. I am not a fan of seeing other people's misery in life. But when they find what they hoped for at the end,despite all that hardship, I feel that may be, just may be there is still hope for all of us in this world, to make it a better place to live for everyone. Afterwards we participated in IAUT's lecture and at the end, my friend and I decided to join the crowd, who were having dinner with the speaker. It was a very pleasant conversation with the speaker and the rest of the poeple there. I enjoyed my time at Bedford academy where we had dinner. Sunday, I got to start doing some sit ups and streches. I want to become the master of sit ups! have as many sit ups as possible in 1 min;). My friend and I explored Microsoft project and got to play with it a bit. I like to play with it more and learn everything about it. I also made piece with my archives;) and they are back again:)


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We watched Casablanca as well!!Apparently it is the # 1 romantic movie of all times! In my humble opinion,I really didn't find the movie that romantic. As my friend puts it, which I agree, I felt touched by the movie. I admired the director for making a 102 min movie full of all types of emotions. The darkness of war times, Love triangles, patriotism and dramatic. But I feel it was more a story of a betrayal than a story of celebration of love or may we won't love someone without betraying someone else? Does one exists without the other, discluding the first loves?

Permanent!!



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Here is the story of the friday the 10th!

Morning

Christina my manager saw me with handful of project. Came to me and said: Is everything okay?Are you happy here? I was a bit suprized but I said, why yes. Everything is great! how is your daurghter doing?? I just asked the most irrelevent question that just popped into my mind! She said that her daughter was doing fine and she smiled and left!

Afternoon

I had to take a late lunch and by the time I got to the cafe, my supervisor, who just was finished her lunch, looked at me sort of suspiciously! why are you late for lunch?so asked. I had to take care of some stuff,I mumbled. And was suprized why she asked me that question. Regardless I ate and went back to my work, I was just sitting down to start my work and bit chatting with my co-worker, she was going to see her friend on the weekend. I told her that I was bored and I want to go to a party! When my supervisor approached me and said: Can you come with me please. She was holding a folder. At first I thought may be I need to see the auditor and explain something about a project but as we passed the auditor's room, I began feeling nervious. I couldn't breathe anymore. Holding my last breath, I finally asked her is it good news or bad news, as I realized we were approaching one of the manager's offices?!She said:I won't give you bad news, or do you want me to give bad news to you?I said:oh not at all. Please don't even say it if it's bad news! At that moment my mind was racing a mile a second thinking about a reason why we are going there. She directed to sit down and she sat next to me. She asked me if I have applied for the positions offered in the company. I said negative, since the HR needs at least a year of service for contract people. Calmly she told me that my department is offereing me a permanent position!!!I was shocked! All this time I thought I was thinking pessimestically and now I was offered a position??I read the the letter in the folder. My salary was raised and I was eligable for benefits and also after a year I could buy shares of the company!!!I was speechless. The only thing I could do was to give a hug to my supervisor and thank her. She said you think I will let you leave?I think I was blushing at that moment since I had hot flashes!!
It was then and there that I realized what Christina was talking about in the morning. Apparantly everyone knew and it was suprize to me!!since afterwards people came to me and congradulated me.

Late Afternoon

As I was wrapping up to leave work I saw Rod, My director. He said with a smile, did you recieve the letter? With the biggest smile on my face, I said yes and thanked him. He said not to thank him. You were a very good employee and we definately want to keep you here as long as possible! We hope you stay here for a while!I guess he knew that I was starting to look around for other positions!!
My co-worker came to me and said:Now you have to invite your friends and have a party!

This is a true story. It happened to a to me when I was so sure that everything is not going to the direction I wanted them to go. I got suprized on how I sometimes get the incorrect impression of the world arround me!

Girls Night Out


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Last night my girl friends and I met up, after careful planning for 2 weeks!That's how we do things. We plan a head of time to make sure everyone can make it and there is ample time for notifying each other!six girls, Joelle,Christine,Maria,Lina,Muna and I, met at milestones. Milestones have a good atmosphere if you want to sit there and talk and enjoy the surroundings. Nice and melo lighting and colours separates you from time and other locations! We talked about everything. Maria and Muna who are getting married this summer, talked about their planning for honey moon trip. Joelle about the fact that she is thinking about having a baby, specially a baby girl! Lina, travelling all over the world and not wanting to have a baby!. Christine about work and how she was nearly changed her job but didn't and I about work. It was fun and nostolgic. Everyone seemed very happy this time. I took pictures to remind us of all the good times that we had specially that all six of us were present yesterday.

Suprize!!

What more from friendship would you want when your friends plan a suprize b-day party for you?My friend bend so many timings to make it happen for me. To me this was the utmost devotion, consideration and deep affection. I had a blast at my suprize b-day gathering:)specially it was at my favorite restuarant, Marche!! eating,drinking,laughing out loud and getting drunk just with a few pieces of the dark chocolate!was great. Saturday,my family and my friend and I went to Pizza Hut for my family version of b-day!it was fun. Specailly that for lunch, My friend and I made a very delcious food but still were hungry for some Pizza!!Sunday my friend and I decided to try Hot House, as one of my classmates suggested their brunch is great, located on Front and Church, we drove and parked and despite an hour wait list!!we stayed and finally got in. I can just say one word. Fantastic. I would definately will go there again. Afterwards we watched the last episode of Sex and the City. I always cry at the endings.. It was an end to an era! for the series, but also for my friend and I. I managed to add some more pieces to the puzzle and we played some pocker and Rim. It was a great weekend.

Make Over

Bored of my looks I decided to do a change in my appearance, specaially that my birthday is today!so I did it!!I changed my hair colour to Violet and I transformed my curly hair to straight..Your curls! Your curls..every one keep saying..is it permenant?my friends said it with fright!!No!it's temperary..straight hair is too boring for me..specailly that I am experiencing all the things girls with straight her always told me and I always said it doesn't look that hard to deal with!!but I like my new look. I may add some green hi lights too it too;)

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Friday night my friend and I decided to throw a game night gathering with some of our close friends. Our goal was to play Torontopoly and Texas Pocker. Having that in mind last week we dedicated some nights to shopping for snack and food and finally everything came into reality on friday night at 7:45, when our first guests arrived:)it was a great close gathering. We ate and danced and sang, thanks to one of our friend's talent in the piano, and finally played. But I must admit, it wasn't a hardcore game because half the time we were laughing at jokes and no pressure in winning;). However I won some good amount of money..ehm..not money really!!chips...I don't play for money..well not yet..if I lose I might have a heart attack!!Friday night ended with poetry and we headed home. Saturday, my friend and I decided to go for brunch and it was such a nice day. Front and Church was the area we decided to explore. It was a nice little walk we had. Lawrance market is located in that area as well. We did a sneak preview of that place too. We ate at Gaient Pub. I ordered Yam Frites, mmmm they tasted yummy!afterwards we decided to headback for another Sex and The City Marathon..

Harper won!!


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Although I voted liberal, deep down I wanted conservatives to win. Not because I like their policies. As a matter of fact, some of those policies are scary. However, I think having a conservative minority government won't be bad. It gives a bit of taste of what conservatives are about to everyone who hasn't had the pleasure of living under those policies. Next election would be interesting though. Since people would have more experience in voting, meaning people can really vote according to their experience, not because they are scared of a party therefore although they don't like the other party, they vote for them anyways!